NEED. FRESH. IDEAS.

So,what do you do when it seems like you're running out of ideas? It's like the photos I take keep repeating itself. :/ I need a new breath of ideas. To try something I never had before. 

INSPIRATION.

Why is it so hard to get? 

Trying to make something new out of nothing. When I look around,I see so much and yet so little. Even when I see photos elsewhere that I like,I cant seem to get an idea. WHY OH WHY.

On a side note,college has been good. So far. :)

Forever Alone Day

So,once again it's the time of the year where people commemorate their love for their other half. But this year there's a twist to it,where the singles celebrate a lonelier version of the day instead.

Thus,Forever Alone Day.

However,love should not only be shown once a year on the 14th of February. Instead,it should be shown everyday with every opportunity we have. Love is selfless. It is shown regardless of anything. why? Because god has loved us from the very beginning,so we should love others as God has loved us. Unconditional. That's what it should be. for that is the greatest commandment of all.

One by one,off we go.

One by one we get picked up and roll down the lane. Some may get a lucky strike,some short of it. But one day,we will all return to the same spot to meet again.

Old time's sake.

Eventually,we will all go our separate ways. But what matters was the friendship that existed between us all. No matter how far apart we are,we will still be connected by this friendship we share. We were all really so close towards the end. it's just sad to see it end. But life goes on. And we'll always have fond memories to reminisce about.

Goodbye Pak,have a great time there. :)

Perfection is a crime.

So,I finally found out what my new year's resolution would be. To not be afraid to make mistakes. I realise,I yearn to be perfect in everything that I do,that I shy away on more than one occasion in doing new things. Because I'm afraid of failure,I would rather pass away precious opportunities. therefore this year,I resolve to not be afraid in making mistakes. Mistakes are part and parcel of the whole learning process. Without them,I'll be losing out in a lot. I would not know my own weaknesses. So there. My resolution of the year. To make more mistakes. Weird eh? But nevertheless,it's true for me. Of course,I'll still set my standards high for everything. Just that now,I will no longer be afraid of everything that comes along the way.

Gonna learn from my mistakes. Starting now. :)

Oh,and I resolve to learn how to sing too. :D

A New Journey

It's currently 1 am. And I'm VERY hungry. To eat more instant noodles or not? D: So,these would be the last few days of my freedom before I enter into college.An entirely new atmosphere,with different challenges to face. How I dread having to go back to studying so soon. but  guess,eventually I'll have to go back too. But on the bright side,at least my schedule for college is a lot less hectic compared to most other people. That much I can rejoice. Scary isn't it? To step into a new place all by yourself. Without company or whatsoever. From now on,I'll only have to make new friends. Meet new people with characters I do not know of. Time flies too fast. But I can do nothing about it.How I wish I could just savour this freedom a little longer,just a little more. Exciting times might await me,I do not know. Or I could be just about to enter into one of the worst times in my life,I do not know that too. The only thing that I do know is that I am facing the inevitable right now. And I have to bulk up in order to cope with it all.


Sigh. College life,here I come. Interesting times ahead. Interesting times. I just hope I will survive through it all.  

Owhh. And new year resolutions? Well,I have none so far. Except perhaps to continue to grow closer to God. He is my strength. With him as my guide,I shall brave this new challenge.

Somewhere I Belong

So,it's been a while since I blogged about something from my seemingly uneventful life. SPM's over now. And  I could say that I did the best I could. I'm confident with how I've done. So now,this episode of my life is about to come to an end. Starting January 9th,I'll be starting my life anew,with new challenges and a different breath of life. Even now,some friends are already making the last preparations to go off to other parts of the world to further their education. Now I really know what others meant when they say,'you don't know what you have till it's gone'. Only now can I come to appreciate the true value of these good friends. Yeah,the whole year might be full of fun and jokes,but when it comes to a time like this,when we would have to go our separate ways,it tends to be sad. Oh,the inevitable journey of life. Loads of other people had to go through this. Now it's only fair for my turn to be up.

Before we had to face the eventuality of being separated,we had a stayover at a friend's house. Not many,just the few of us. But it gave me a renewed view off things. We stayed up just talking till I actually fell asleep. *yeah,I'm that lame. :D* But the rest continued on talking for a while after that I guess. xD

The movie we watched,You Are the Apple of My Eye had a really sad ending. Like,not 'super depressing,everybody dies' sad,but 'relates to you and might actually happen' kind of sad. It gave me a new idea of what I want. I guess to me now,a relationship should not work because we try to make it so all the time,but because it is genuine. If it happens,it happens. If not,then it just doesn't. The whole 'wait till it's after SPM' thing doesn't matter unless you could meet the right one. Everything is up to God's timing. It make be now,or it might only happen for only years more to come. But you cannot rush His timing. So I think I'm about close to understanding how a relationship should be. But as the days go by,I also realise that there is so much more for me to understand. No matter how mature I may think I am,but there's actually a lot more to understand. But for now,i do know that a relationship is something not forced upon,or a position that requires constant effort to maintain,but it is a place of where two people meet willingly. So,my standards continue to go up higher. :D Yeah,it might need a little nudge to start it. But only a little nudge in the right direction. That's all.

'You cannot rush perfection' 

Because everything done by our own effort can only bring us what is good,but keeps us away from the best things God has in store for us. 

Conclusion? Crushes might actually just be crushes. Nothing more.Once more,till the day. :)

Learning to not put the horse before the cart. :)